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Sweetness Machines
06:56
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it’s not a laughing matter
this comedy of decay
mcdonald’s hollywood manufacture
sweetness machines to-day!
sometimes they lie!
and tell the old how young they are..
it’s like you’re going in a waiter
+ coming back a star!
I believe the machine
can give me whatever I wish for
the machine can give me love!
and, if I want, all-out war..
the tool to end all frustration
it’s digital! It’s divine!
put your faith in machines
that promise a good time
“I got my dream machine!
It transmits twittering tones!
You know with Sweetness Machines,
you never feel alone!”
I believe the machine
can give me whatever I wish for
the machine can give me love
and, if I want, all-out war..
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Popcorn Nostalgia
06:15
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POPCORN NOSTALGIA (december 1998)
Popcorn nostalgia, celebrate the actors
I used to be one in my thinner days
celluloid perfection, freeze-frame the cellulite
My legs used to turn men on…
Turn off the Movie! Turn on the Lights!
Remember Me if only for To-night!
I spoke all the lines, made love to the camera
You’d close your eyes and make believe to me..
it’s not real but it’s still true
the Monster always gets to you.
Turn off the Movie! Turn on the Lights!
Remember Me if only for To-night!
(if you see me, don’t be disappointed by what time has done to me.. I’m not my movies. I don’t have perfect teeth. In life, I could never suspend your disbelief..)
sandpaper critics say, “beauty is a rose
with immortality on the vine…”
If that’s true, then I should tell you
I want back what’s rightfully mine!
I want back my glamour! I want back my pride!
Beauty is on the outside!
I want back my cuteness, my innocent me...
I don’t want to be this thing you see.
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Long Wrong Thoughts
05:57
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don’t let these long, wrong thoughts take root inside your heart
don’t root these long, wrong thoughts in your heart
it’ll only cause you to quicken breaths
and it’ll make bark emerge through your chest
then you’ll find wrinkles on your skin,
flames at your fingertips, the wooden stakes of sin
don’t let these long, wrong thoughts take root inside your heart
don’t root these long, wrong thoughts in your heart
don’t give up on lifeless points of view
though they are false they may come true
when black is white and red is blue
and the sky burns behind you
don’t let these long, wrong thoughts take root inside your heart
don’t root these long, wrong thoughts in your heart
our thoughts grow old, our thoughts grow slack
new thoughts chop us down, our minds turned to sap
no one can see through our newfound disease
time it doth scatter all our beliefs
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Concrete Dreams
07:00
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Concrete dreams February 13, 1996
everything is exactly as it seems. we really are sinking with our concrete dreams. we drink the night! and we disbelieve.. I don’t know what I want.. you don’t know what you need..
thank god we’re self-sufficient!
because you know they always leave you when you need them..
do you really think I don’t see what’s going on? do you really think I don’t see that something’s wrong? these are typewriter days of blue and rain and I don’t know if I can go home again
and everybody knows…
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Sylvia
06:08
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Sylvia –revised july 2000 (written in September 1996)
you smoke cigarettes like sentences
that tell me how you are
I’m caught up in your messages
that cling to me like tar..
how do you say
the things you never let yourself say?
how do you say “denial”?
oh Sylvia –please listen to me
to-night we are having fun
so get up and dance with me
you want to sympathize with your villains
convince yourself that it’s okay
your addictions are confessions
but you’re no angel and you cannot fly away
chorus
the year is 1923 and it’s a ballroom scene.
The city is berlin and you’re feeling mean..
I know I let you down…
paint the moon so prettily down
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Trapeze Artist
03:14
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you make it seem so easy
when you fall from the trapeze!
you make it seem so easy
when you crash down around your knees!
and I know they wouldn’t let you down from there..
you made it seem so easy
when you were up there on the trapeze!
like a leaf fluttering through the trees..
like a wave that rolls upon the seas..
and I know they wouldn’t let you down from there..
and you weren’t there for the applause
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"Battleships"
07:55
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there’s nothing i can do to calm the night.
there’s nothing i can say to make it all right.
do you feel like you’re putting up with too much?
do you feel like your love has become a crutch?
drink the battleships and taint your love..
it’s in your heart! it’s in your blood!
you’re out here with the wind and the seagulls
meanwhile the water is leaking into the ship’s hull
but this ship you’re on it seems so far from shore
and you don’t know if you can swim back anymore..
drink the battleships and taint your love
you’ve got to fight for what you love!
caught up in the future, waiting for the past
hope that running forward will make these feelings pass
there’s nothing i can do to calm the night
but I will hold your hand and say it’ll be all right.
drink the battleships and taint your love
it’s in your heart! it’s in your blood!
drink the battleships and taint your love
you’ve got to fight for what you love…
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Black Star
03:49
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Black star April 9, 1994
black star.. light choked by the sky
couldn’t bear the thought of everyone
watching how he passed the time
reading in the magazines
seeing on the t.v. screens
plain for everyone to see…
not everyone can be the sun
but it’s hard to convince the sun
he’s not the only one in the sky…
can’t stand the pressure
couldn’t stand the pressure
too many stargazers make him want to go supernova
burn out by his own flame
it all feels the same to him…
black star
light crash
black star ain’t ever coming back..
try to imagine and understand the pain..if he was only older, would it all have been the same? smother.. the one who didn’t want to shine.. never get a chance to grow black star light burned out where did you go?
1st verse and chorus
now when i. look up to see the sky I try but I can’t see my black star shine.
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Razorblade Man
06:04
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Razorblade man –March 14, 1994
waiting for the clouds to fall
waiting for the moon to disappear
waiting for the mountains to move
waiting forever to be near..
you took my razorblade hands
I thought I could
but I can’t make you understand..
wishing for just one more chance
wishing for the clouds to let the storm go
waiting for the evergreens to shelter me
as the raging storm takes hold
you took my razorblade hands
I thought I could
but I can’t make you understand
I listen to the wind
I sing to the sun
I converse freely with the clouds
yet I can’t talk with anyone…
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11. |
Magical Power (bonus)
05:46
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This Mad Desire Hamilton, Ontario
The music of Hamilton, Ontario-based Mackenzie Kristjon. Like "Neil Young on David Bowie drugs". For more info, please contact macsonfire@gmail.com
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